I'm back!

Still been a long long time since my last blog.
and Here, I'm back!

Parenthood aint easy. Its super tiring!
Anyway, Hubby & I going HongKong in 18days time!
Yaahoo~~

Its a country I always wanted to go. My mum is taking care of my baby boy. So we can only go for a short short trip. 4days 3nites.

Will back to update with photos when im back from HK trip.

When love become family

Everything changed when the status changes.

When love become ur family....things changed....

I no longer accept who u are. U no longer give me a Fairytale life. I shouldnt have pinned high hope on u? We are not here talking abt "betraying". Things breaking up not only betraying. Even simple things that keep on rolling over, just like snow became a big snowman. Things gone uncontrollable. I no longer jus wan to hear "Ok, sorry!" I'm waiting for u to change but u didnt. When my temper got nasty, u failed to understand why... I'm left with zero patience towards u.

We both failed to work thing out. I'm expecting high/much from u. Don't be just like other guys, quarrel, says I'm sorry n that's it. Don't be like a kid to me, when mummy ask u to do work den u will do. Please! Behaved like a adult! U are father of one! Take initiative!

How bad can it be when love changes to family? Yes! It's definitely super bad for us, between us. ESP when u are kind of person don't listen to ur family. How the way u treat ur parents, the way u turn deaf on ur parents comments. I'm becoming one of them. U turned deaf when I speak to u on our problems. That's how we have becoming to.

Living together is a great test for us ESP now we have a kid. Can we overcome those problems? I have no confidence. Our nest is gonna to be ready soon. Now things are already bad enough, I really can't imagine when we moved in to our own hse.

As a father, I just like many other mummies, find u not doing enough. U simply end things with "I don't know how to do.." too many simple chores u can't n u don't know how to do. I'm also not like other women, remaining cool n calm n do everything by myself quietly. I will jus shout out loud~

You wont realize n come to awake when u are saying to us, "I don't know how to do..." it is so much irritating n showing off how useless u are being a man. All I expect u to do, share the hse chore load, share the taking care of BB load, stop saying I don't know n get ur ass to learn. Stay absolute fresh n clean when u handling BB. Issit too much to ask from u?

If u can do those I stated well, I bet we can lead a simple peaceful life.....

越看似简单，越是难做到。。。

Family outing!

We brought Skyler for a swim~ He loves it! We tried to bring Skyler out weekly. If not he will be super bored staying at home facing four walls. Daddy is doing more compare to last time. We both love our baby Skyler. When we move in to our nest, it will be officially "complete" family. *counting down*...............

Now Daddy loves carrying Skyler as his neck is quite stable now.

Daddy even help out in carrying Skyler using a carrier! *happy*

~ Happy Family ~

Our adorable baby *buay pai sei*

Our new lifestyle...

Now is only Baby BAby BABY!
Don't have any couple life / husband & wife life.
So long din go for movies....shopping also bring baby along, which hubby don't seems to enjoy bring Skyler out, he find it very troublesome. In terms of transport & have to prepare & carry lots of things. A heavy diaper bag & stroller. Moreover, every three hrs Skyler has to drink milk. We have to find nursing room or a place to settle for milk time. (But I still pretty much enjoy bring Skyler with us)

Conflicts can nvr be less!
Hubby does help out some times.....
- He will sterilised milk bottle.
- If I'm carry / feed baby, he will help to prepare or get whatever I need him to

BUT!!!
He don't help baby to bath or change diaper!
He don't cut the nails for Skyler!
He sometimes will try to siam to feed Skyler!
He claimed that he scared! Coz Skyler has no head control yet....
So we shall see in the future if he help out for those he doesnt do it... =)

Family shopping trip

Hubby n I bring Skyler to Causeway Point. Today is the first time we three went shopping tgt without my mum tag along. Luckily we still can cope well. (Maybe not for Hubby) kekez. He said no more next time. But I enjoyed very much. Hehe.

We had a theme color of clothing for today's outing. It's Yellow! One of my fav color. Since we can't have the same clothes but at least same color.

The place I most wanted to bring Skyler to is Zoo!! I love zoo. Hubby n I went there almost every yr. It's also the place hubby proposed to me. Heee. I guess have to at least Skyler turns one yr old.

I will wait...

Parenthood

Now being a parent, no longer a lover, not jus husband n wife, with greater responsibilities.

More conflicts arise. I lose my cool at times. Feeling stressful and thinking he is not in any help. Feel he did not love me n baby.

Knowing I've to stand at his shoes, he got his own stress, feeling tired after work n classes.

Afterall, I know and also I hope I'm jus thinking too much, being over-sensitive. Hoping he is willingly to sacrifice all his time for this family, for me and baby. He will be a great dad n husband. We both have to learn tgt. Grow tgt. Build a healthy family for Skyler.

Next focus will be to have a comfortable nest for us. (by next yr)

Parenthood

Hubby & I are officially a Daddy & Mummy now~
Our precious name is Skyler Kok. Born on the 19th July 2010 @ Mount Alvernia Hospi.

I appreciated Hubby was there with me during labour.
He was very encouraging during my labour pain.
It was a pretty touching moment.
He witnessed his son, baby Skyler arrival.

After labour, I nearly entered a danger stage. Hubby worried.
Luckily, everything turn out fine for me.
He told me the sweetest thing, he doesn't want to try a 2nd one (child) as he don't want to see me so xin ku.

I know he is a great husband & will be a wonderful daddy.
Thou, I have phobia for going thru pregnancy & labour, if I manage to overcome it, I would still like to try to give my Hubby a daughter (he hope for), Skyler a little sister.

**2 yrs later den discuss this again~ whahahaha

Hubby, lets us together enjoy & learn to be a parent of baby Skyler~
I love you, Hubby.